Sep 03, 2020 — USA (SUN) — Sadhaka-dehocita-Sri-brndabana-basa-lalasa (The Devotee's Aspiration to Reside in Sri Vrndavana), by Srila Narottama das Thakur, translated by Sriman Kusakratha dasa.
Sa-parsada-bhagavad-viraha-janita-vilapa
(Separated from the Lord and His Associates, the Author Laments)
Song 41
Text 1
je anilo prema-dhana koruna pracur
heno prabhu kotha gela acarya-thakur
He who brought the treasure of divine love and who was filled with compassion and mercy--where has such a personality as Srinivasa Acarya gone?
Text 2
kaha mora swarup rupa kaha sanatan
kaha dasa raghunatha patita-paban
Where are my Svarupa Damodara and Rupa Gosvami? Where is Sanatana? Where is Raghunatha dasa, the savior of the fallen?
Text 3
kaha mora bhatt-juga kaha kabiraj
eka-kale kotha gela gora nata-raj
Where are my Raghunatha Bhatta and Gopala Bhatta and wehre is Krsnadasa Kaviraja? Where did Lord Gauranga, the great dancer, suddenly go?
Text 4
pasane kutibo matha anale pasibo
gauranga gunera nidhi kotha gele pabo
I will smash my head against the rock and enter into the fire. Where will I find Lord Gauranga, the reservoir of all wonderful qualities?
Text 5
se-saba sangira sange je koilo bilas
se-sanga na paiya kande narottama das
Being unable to obtain the association of Lord Gauranga accompanied by all of these devotees in whoseassociation He performed His pastimes, Narottama dasa simply weeps.
Aksepa (regret)
Song 42
Text 1
gora panhu na bhajiya mainu
prema-ratana-dhana helaya harainu
I did not worship Lord Gauranga Prabhu, and thus I becme full of suffering. I refused to accept the treasure of pure love of Krsna, and thus I became lost.
Text 2
adhane jatana kari' dhana tejaginu
apana karama-dose apani dhubinu
I rejected the treasure of love of Krsna and deliberately struggled to become poor. I dived into a host of sinful deeds.
Text 3
sat-sanga chadi' kainu asate bilasa
te-karane lagila je karma-bandha phamsa
I rejected the association of the saintly devotees, and instead tried to enjoy among the impious non-devotees. In this way I became caught in the noose of karma.
Text 4
bisaya bisama bisa satata khainu
gora-kirtana-rasa magana na hainu
I continually drank the virulent poison of sense-gratification. I refused to swim in the nectar of Lord caitanya's sankirtana movement.
Text 5
kena ba achaye prana ki sukha paiya
narottama dasa kena na gela mariya
Why do I stay alive? What happiness do I have? Why has Narottama dasa not died long ago?
Song 43
Text 1
hari hari ki mora karama anurata
bisaye kutila-mati sat-sange na haila rati
kise ara taribara patha
My crooked mind delights in sense-gratification, but not in the association of the saintly devotees. Why do I follow this dangerous pathy? O Lord Hari, Lord Hari, how have I become so attached to materialism?
Text 2
swarupa sanatana rupa raghunatha bhatta-juga
lokanatha siddhanta-sagara
sunitama se-saba katha ghucita manera byatha
tabe bhala haita antara
In the past I continually heard the philosophy of Krsna consciousness from Srila Svarupa Damodara Gosvami, Srila Sanatana Gosvami, Srila Rupa Gosvami; Srila Raghunatha dasa Gosvami, Srila Raghunatha Bhatta Gosvami, Srila Gopala Bhatta Gosvami, and Srila Lokanatha Gosvami, who is like a great ocean of devotional truth. By hearing their words the pain within my mind subsided, and I attained an auspicious condition of life.
Text 3
jakhana gaura-nityananda adwaitadi-bhakta-brnda
nadiya-nagare abatara
takhana na haila janma ebe dehe kiba karma
micha matra bahi phiri bhara
Lord Caitanya, Lord Nityananda, Lord Advaita, and the devotees who are Their personal associates have descended from the spiritual world to the town of Nadiya. They have not taken birth as ordinary mortals do. How wonderful are Their transcendental activities! I am not like Them. I simply trudge along carrying a great heap of illusory materialistic burdens.
Text 4
haridasa adi bule mahotsabapadi kare
na herinu se sukha-bilasa
ki mora duhkhera katha janama gonanu brtha
dhik dhik narottama dasa
Haridasa Thakura and the other devotees travelled about absorbed in a sonstant festival of the glorification of Lord Krsna, but i myself was unable to see these blissful pastimes. How sad is my tale. I have wasted my life. Fie, fie on Narottama dasa.
Baisnaba-mahima (Glorification of the Devotees)
Song 44
Text 1
thakura baisnaba-pada abanira su-sampada
suna bhai hana eka mana
asraya laiya bhaje ta're krsna nahi tyaje
ara saba mare akarana
O brother, please haer my words with rapt attantion. The lotus feet of the Vaisnavas the most valuable treasure of this world. These Vaisnavas continually take shelter of Lord Krsna and worship Him, They never abandon their Lord. They are liberated. They are free from the cycle of birth and death.
Text 2
baisnaba-carana-jala prema-bhaktidite bala
ara keha nahe balabanta
baisnaba-carana-renu mastake bhusana binu
ara nahi bhusanera anta
The water which has washed the lotus feet of the Vaisnavas bestows devotional service in pure love of God, and there is nothing as effective for attaining this divine love. I place the dust from the lotus feet of the Vaisnavas upon my head. I wear no other ornament.
Text 3
tirtha-jala pabitra-guna likhiyache purane
se saba bhaktira prabancana
baisnabera padodaka sama nahe ei saba
jate haya banchita purana
The purifying power of the waters at the various holy places of pilgrimage is described in the Puranas, although this issomething of a deceptive trick. Actually there is not anything as purifying as the water which has washed the lotus feet of the Vaisnavas. This water fulfills all desires.
Text 4
baisnaba-sangete mana anandita anuksana
sada haya krsna-para-sanga
dina narottama kande hiya dhairya nahi bandhe
mora dasa kena haila bhanga
Moment after moment my mind finds constant pleasure in the association of the Vaisnavas. I always seek out the company of those who are devoted to Lord Krsna. Poor-hearted Narottama dasa breaks down and cries. How has this fallen condition come upon me?
