The Devotee's Aspiration to Reside in
Sri Vrndavana, Part 6
BY: SUN STAFF
May 28, 2012 USA (SUN) Sadhaka-dehocita-Sri-brndabana-basa-lalasa (The Devotee's Aspiration to Reside in Sri Vrndavana), by Srila Narottama das Thakur, translated by Sriman Kusakratha dasa.
(Prayer to the Vaisnavas)
thakura baisnaba-gana kari ei nibedana
mo bada adhama duracara
daruna-samsara-nidhi tahe dhubaila bidhi
kese dhari' more kara para
O saintly Vaisnavas, although I am very fallen and misbehaved, I nevertheless place this appeal before you: My destiny has immersed me in this fearsome ocean of repeated birth and death. Please grab me by the hair, and pull me to the opposite shore.
bidhi bada balaban na sune dharama-jnana
sadai karama-pase bandhe
na dekhi tarana lesa jate dekhi saba klesa
anatha katare teni kande
My destiny is very powerful. I am not able to hear the knowledge of spiritual life, and I am always bound by the ropes of karma. I cannot see any way to escape my condition. I see only suffering. Helpless and stricken with grief, I cry.
kama krodha lobha moha mada abhimana saha
apana apana sthane tane
aichana amara mana phire jena andhajana
supatha vipatha nahi jane
My blind mind cannot see what path is auspicious or inauspicious. My blind mind is helplessly dragged from here to there by lust, anger, greed, bewilderment, madness, and pride.
na lainu sat mata asate majila cita
tuya paye na karinu asa
narottama dase kaya dekhi' sun'i lage bhaya
taraiya laha nija pasa
My mind became immersed in the impermanent satisfaction of the senses, and I could not understand the reals goal of life. for this reason I did not aspire to attain Your lotus feet. Narottama dasa says--Now that I am able to see, hear, and touch the Vaisnavas, I have become free form all fear.
ei-baro karuna koro baisnava gosai
patita-pabana toma bine keho nai
O Vaisnavas Gosvami, please be merciful to me now. ther is no one except you who can purify the fallen souls.
jahara darsane saba papa dure jay
emona doyalaprabhu debakothapay
Where does anyone find such a merciful personality by whose mere audience all sins go far away?
gangara parasa hoile pascate paban
darsane pabitra koro--ei tomara gun
After bathing in the waters of the sacred Ganges many times, one becomes purified, but just by the sight of you, the fallen souls become are pruified. This is your great power.
hari-sthane aparadhe tare harinam
toma sthane aparadhe nahi paritran
The holy name delivers one who has committed an offense of Lord Hari, but if one commits an offense to you, there is no means of deliverance.
tomara hrdoye sada gobinda-bisram
gobinda kohena--mam baisnava paran
Lord Govinda always stays within your heart. Lord Govinda says: "the Vaisnavas are my life and soul."
proti-janme kori asa caranera dhuli
narottame koro doya apanara boli'
I hope that in every birth I may attain the dust of your lotus feet. Please declare this Narottama dasa to be your property. Pleae be merciful to him.
ki-rupe paiba seba mui duracara
sri-guru-baisnabe rati na haila amara
I have no deovtion for either the Vaisnavas or my own spiritual master. How is it possible for a rascal like me to attain devotional service?
asesa mayate mana magana haila
baisnabete lesa-matra rati na janmila
My mind is always drowning in illusion. I have not even the smallest fragment of devotion for the Vaisnavas.
bisaye tuliya andha hainu diba-nisi
gale phamsa dite phire maya se pisaci
I have become blind by constantly meditating on the objects of the senses. The maya-witch has placed a hangman's noose around my neck.
inhare kariya jaya chadana na jaya
sadhu-krpa bina ara hanika upaya
Even if I can cure my blindness and defeat the maya-hangman, I cannot become free from material illusion without the mercy of the saintly devotees.
ei-bara narottame karaha nistara
O master, O purifier of the sinful, O savior of the fallen souls, please rescue this Narottama dasa.